Circus and my love

Entry by Rain

Last night I performed at a castle. Paul asked “Is there a moat, a drawbridge and a black knight?” The answer was yes. One of the few actual castles in the U.S., I performed rope, aerial hoop, and chains. Chains is one of my absolute favorite things to perform, but my least favorite thing to rehearse...because of how painful it is. In my life I've had absolutely no S&M tendencies...except now after performing chain for the past 3 years, I can begin to understand it maybe a little bit. There is a sort of energy that comes from pain which you can't experience through any other means. A book was recommended to me last year which I recommend to everyone I encounter these days....When Things Fall Apart. It's about accepting everything that comes your way, the pleasure and the pain, and reveling in the experience of it. Not chasing pleasure and running from pain. Now, I'm not one to invite pain into my life in any way, in fact I'm kind of a wuss. However, my experience with circus and a drug addict boyfriend has given me thick skin, literally and figuratively, and I'm extremely grateful for that.